sitting atop the world
observing the greatest view
simply stunning
talking about times long gone
remembering our pasts
our moment of a lifetime
i remember what you ment to me
sitting there with that smile
simply a joy to be with
wondering why we havent done this earlier
i missed you
i miss you
once pondering waht it would be like
now i know for sure
truely amazing
i write this powm so i never forget
forget you
dearest kate
Gathering my strength,
for another beating,
How am i ment to love you,
if all i feel is constant pain.
Its finally over,
I hope its the last time,
But i know it wont be,
Not this time.
How did it get to this?
You used to be so loving,
Affectionate,
Why do you hate me so?
Should i change my hair?
my clothes?
my face?
My self?
Sneaking out of bed,
Check that your still sleeping,
Gathering my thoughts,
I can do nothing but cry.
Cry for you,
Cry for us,
Cry for what we had,
For my self.
Quietly gathering my possetions,
I leave,
This will be the last time,
That i let myself fall victim.
He sits there looking at me
I wonder what he is thinking
Suddenly i feel naked
My thoughts
My past
Exposed
Looking away now in shock
Still, that does not stop him
He's in my head
No escape
I look back at him
He smiles at me
He digs deeper in my mind
I need to get away
I get off the bus
I still feel him
I now hear his voice
He's telling me i cant escape
I try to fall asleep
All i hear is him laughing
Laughing at me
I cant do anything
Years later
He's still there
Now rather than hiding
I faced my fears
I befreinded the voice in my head
Another tomorrow that I dream of that she of the dream that it wakes up, would live went is to suffer its end has myself, that she says of better my life my friend of, of friend that my kisses of lid, of me she supports the call that smiles and the affittuario, that I play the supports in the head, that troubled, it only a swift dream that its cheerful step I knowledge the its door in the order of to stand in the better opposition that the mine cleaned an a the esteem every minute we were done that edition with her smile me, that I the conversation wants to listen to that I the desire of gratitude that dreams it the girl
Pure
The words just flow
From one heart
Straight into another
Meaningful words
Powerful
Beautiful
Enchanting
To beleive that she was scared
Just to open her heart
To feel all these emotions
To hear the words of love
Never did she want to let go
Lose control
Never thought it was possible
To feel like this
She now walks around
A large smile on her face
As radiant as the sun
Never will it fade
Her life has new meaning
A new reason to wake up
To feel alive
To live
She is one of the few
Who feel this way
Only because she dared
To open her heart
I cannot begin to explain to you just how much you mean to me
There are no words to explain
Just how i feel inside
No matter how hard i try
Im speachless
Petrefied
Locked in your eyes
Lost in your beautiful soul
Deep inside i see fear
Fear to love
Fear to lose control
Your eyes tell me you love me
I love you too
Always have
I look away
I cannot believe what i saw
Such love, passion
It was overwhelming
I brace myself for what im gonna do
I embrace you
Whisper into your ear
Three small words (i love you)
Was all i could say
What is impossible?
Impossible is a barrier that we as people put up,
To stop us from achieving our potential,
Because it is societies way of control.
Impossible is a word that means you have to work less,
If this word is spoken,
You suddenly underachieve yourself,
But no one speaks badly of you,
Because it's impossible.
We all have it in ourselves to achieve the impossible,
Instead most of us seem not to,
Society benefits from that,
Yet nothing is impossible.
We have made fire,
We have made the wheel,
We have invented space ships,
And landed on Mars.
Do these actions sound as though they are impossible? No
At one stage they
Little children running around
The playground
The place to be
Sounds of laughter drift over to me
I observe the children
The mothers run over to break up another fight
A child walks off holding his arm and crying
The mothers are now engaged in a battle
Obscenities drift through the air
While the same two children go and pick on another
The violence we breed begins young, And
Stays forever
The picked on ones become drug users, And
Ultimately come down with depression
The bullies remain idiots for the rest of their lives
Spreading this disease
This disease breeds from prejudice and spreads hatred
The hatred is passed down the g
This was a dark night
There was an absence of light
He stood there in the doorway
But he found nothing to say
She awaited his return
For she was very concerned
She had missed him so
But warned him not to go
He looked at her pretty face
The face he longed to see
Memories came rushing back like a flood
He just stood there remembering
She looked at his face for the first time in years
She found herself remembering their past
The joy, the sorrow
Still made her smile
Their eyes met
They were staring through each other
Their minds in the past
Yet curious about their future
Entering the trance
Blocking out this world
Being myself
Truly
Sitting on my bed
Eyes closed
Legs crossed
Mind elsewhere
Entranced
Feel the power
Being free
Blissful silence
Pictures emerge
Good
Bad
Empowering
Wanting to stay
But having to go
Leaving the place
I truly call home
I am here
But where is here?
Is here a real place?
Or just a man made device?
How is it that I am?
Am I everything that I think I am?
Or is this all just in my head?
No one knows
No one is real
People are just electronical signals in our brains
As are feelings and sensations
Everything is man made
What is intelligence?
Is it our understanding of our surroundings?
Or the ability to remember?
Or to learn?
No I am not here
No one is
Just a figment of our imagination
Is the place we call the world
Looking up at her smiling face
The moonlight making her features even more exquisite
A gentle wind picks up her hair
She looks like an angel
Sitting together
Snuggly locked
The two of them enjoying such closeness
Remembering their past
She wonders what his thoughts are as he glances at her again
Just as she always has
Saying the words
He makes her laugh
Looking at the dark waves crash
They enjoy their silence
He looks at her again
Remembering why he fancied her
One day
Not so long ago
I had it all
Everything once could have wanted
Now i sit with an empty bottle of cougar
My only freind
I remenesk about my past
A brief smile flushes my wrinkled face
How long have i been sitting here?
I cant remember
Cant remember anything
Except my past
I have been sitting here
Bogged
Not even had the choice to move on
Never was alloud
A mistake was made
1 lie
1 measly little lie
Now look at me
Maybe its better this way
Now maybe i can moce on
Do i want to is the question?
My heart says no but my mind says yes
If i dont im forever stuck in the past
If i do
I dont even want to consider it
On
Alone in the cold rain
Sitting, waiting for something to come along
Knowing nothing is comming
Still i sit patiently
I look, hopeful
For something, anything to come save me
Nothing is comming fast
Little choice is what i have
Always, i sit and wait
No benefit, yet i still hope
Hope for something good
I see something, someone who can save me
They walk past
Am i invisible?
Am i unsaveable?
Am i what i never wanted to be?
Nothing, nothing is what i am
Waiting through living is what i did
Now i eternally wait in this place
But nobody can save me
I couldnt save myself
I just waited for nothing
The days of youth are comming to a close
Rapidly i am changing
To be someone
Someone better than this
Grow
Develop
Become more myself
Something i havet done before
I look to the future
One things for certain
I will be with myself
By myself
Nothing else is set in stone
Nothing at all
Everything is under a number of variables
Everything can be changed
No point in holding grudges
Doesn't acheive anything
Forgive but never forget
Just be more aware
Pain
Get used to it
The world is full of it
If you didn't know
Life
It seems
Is just a game for one
Nothing more
Fuck it
Fuck it all
Fuck it off
Fuck this shit
I used to enjoy waking up
But now i have more reason to give up
Do the sleep for all eternity
Then i can't be fucked with
Marijuana
Extacy
Acid
Great ways of coping
Extend the Sleeping
Even while your awake
Used to be loving
Now i forsake
Need my fix of drugs (ahhh)
All i needed to keep going
Until i have
Just one too many
Current Residence: Melbourne, Australia Favourite genre of music: rock, metal, some poppy happy beats Favourite photographer: PLayboy Favourite style of art: 3d Stuff Operating System: My brain MP3 player of choice: Ipod Photo Wallpaper of choice: Ford GT Skin of choice: Baboon Favourite cartoon character: Dr Zoidberg
Favourite Visual Artist
Van Gough for cuttin off his ear... I can relate
Favourite Movies
Anyhting by jackie chan, jim carrey, adam sandler, anything funny
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
spineshank, metallica, anthrax, korn, cradle of filth, kittie
Favourite Writers
David Gemmel, Iain Banks
Favourite Games
Aussie Rules FoOty
Favourite Gaming Platform
NES
Tools of the Trade
Hammering your thumb
Other Interests
I am interested in drumming, goin out, playing baseball, footy, just generally goin out n having fun
Ok i have been forced to write a journal entry...
I had a good day today... everything just worked... I woke up and it was a nice sunny day for once not one of thoes shit days where you dont want to get up in the morning... But an actual decent day... I was waiting for the tram and i stood in one spot to see how close i would be to the doors when they opened... Today they opened right infront of me... That was pretty weird in its self... Then i stayed back after class for a few drinks to celebrate Keryns 21st that happend about a week before... Then i went down to Monash Caulfeild to meet a freind that i havent seen for about a year and a ha
well it took a while but here i am
~Vonapets
Dim
* is an Emotional Poet
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* is a deviant since Aug 3, 2005, 11:08 AM
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:w00t: yay go me:D :hug: to all whom have looked at my page and have helped me reach my 1000!
- Dim
As my dear friend Christine already pointed out, She got my 666'th page veiw! :heart: (i didnt even know she knew i wanted that as a milestone... but oh well!)
~Vonapets
* is an Emotional Poet
* is Male
* is a deviant since Aug 3, 2005, 11:08 AM
* has 666 pageviews
* is located in Australia
* is online
* is currently WTF?
:D WOOOT GO ME!!! NEXT MILESTONE iS 1000:D
Love you all who have helped me acheive this milestone in such a short amount of time!
Dim